🎵 The Past Is The Past // by Chazer Wazer

2 Contributors The Past Is The Past Lyrics This is the story of Chazer Wazer in a fun and inventive way [Verse 1] I've been waiting for 30 years now And there's nothing you can't do to make me unproud Somehow I managed to meet a girl like your mum Who could make me a dad And I promise to do better then mine who was scum He would call me a waste of space He'd beat me and say pain is a bad thing Sorry, just thinking of him makes me mad But I promise to make you glad I'll get behind you, no matter what you wanna do Whether that's sing or make someone feel like a king I'm writing this here because I don't want you To know what I've been through I'll always be true with you See, my father never wanted a child Especially a boy who he knew would replace him one day But due to this it was hard for me to smile We were broke and he thought I was just in the way Smacking me and nan is what he would call play I don't know why she stayed She constantly lived in fear And would pretend she couldn't hear Him fucking many hoes Until their relationship closed Due to one night where her head exploded like the twin towers She shot herself after slicing he's throat That day made me realize how life can change in hours And that's why I don't want you to be in the same boat But if you fall off then you wouldn't flout Because I've got you Just remember I'll guide us through I love you [Verse 2] Sorry, I haven't spoke to ya in 3 days But yesterday I missed an opportunity I was too busy being at your birth My companies been hurt But I said I'd do anything for you Even if that means moving to the next city or two At the moment I can't give you the perfect life But a new life comes with a price Although this hasn't been the best start I know your'll have a golden heart And smart These are my expectations And you'll do well cause of my connections I know you won't let me down I mean you were practically born with a crown I don't want you to reach my lows Like being told you're a clown I want you to reach the highest of heights Because in my life I had no shinning light But I know you'll shine bright More then the moon in the night I apologize for putting you under pressure But I just want you to do better I want to be your mood setter And that's going to be happiness I promise never to be heartless Just remember, I'll always be there And make it so you never live in fear I'll make it so you have a great career And not a shit one like rap But I've always got your back Just remember I'll guide us through I love you [Verse 3] I know it's been 3 years But a lot of shits happened And it's because of you I spend every night in tears You have disappointed me so much I am saddened I had high expectations for you But I don't trust You to reach them After all I went through You were gonna be my gem But look at ya, you're three And you still can't walk Your mum tells me this is how life is superpose to be I have to write this down because I can't stand to talk The worst thing happened, I hit her today My logic was there was no other way I'm constantly sweating And I'm up to 6 whiskeys a day I've been told I need to start laughing But whats the point when your son is slow as shit I always want to walk around with my wrists slit Your mum's not helping with lines like "I'm leaving you" I feel like I should care But apparently I have tones of issues See, before you came along, I was a millionaire But you've ruined my life Now I just sit in a dark room Doing coke and drinking It's where I'm happiest, out of sight, it's nice I used to say you would shine brighter then the moon But you've heavily disappointed me, god knows what I was thinking Just remember Ah fuck it [Verse 4] It's been nearly 13 years since we've spoke But I completely forgot about you He found what I said all those years a go And he thinks I'm a joke I'm still addicted to coke I tried to Make amends but he doesn't want to know And I don't know what to do He's album came out yesterday But I can't bring myself to listen to it I just want to lock myself away Especially since he got hit It pains me that I'll never see him again I always wanted a son to call my friend But I regret everything I said And there's a lot of stuff going through my head Mainly dread And that fact that my little boy is dead I apologize to my ex wife, I should have never slapped her I also said, never be a rapper This isn't me apologizing to Chazer This is a father beginning for forgiveness I had the plan to give you the perfect Christmas But instead I want to praise ya Unfortunately, no ones gonna see this note I tried to end my life by alcohol But it's not working, I plan to use the rope I mean this is my fault after all I just want to say one last thing Chazer, you're dreaming, I would never say this I still hate you, I think you're shit I'll soon be in hell laughing Now it's time to wake up from this coma See, you can imagine these things But remember this is only your dream I'll never forgive you You're the reason I drank Cause if we review I was happy before you came along And because of you my life sank But I tried to stay strong But you took too long I'm nearly dead and remember this is your fault That I was done for assault You snitched You little bitch You're on top of the world now So enjoy it It'll end, so take a bow I'm recording this is my car And know what's exactly going through your head But that's so far From reality, where you lay in bed 6 feet down In the ground And soon, I won't be found As I speed up towards the ocean And I refuse to show emotion However I would like to thank your killer I would be but he was quicker Well, looks like my time is nearly up The marathon of life was fun to run [Verse 5] So, clearly you had a lot of things to say Well, all you need to know is I'm here to stay Yes, I was slow in the beginning But know I'm finally winning You're someone who talks about me failing But a father isn't superposed to be known for bailing They're superposed to be known for trailblazing But I didn't need your raising I never understood the things you did As a school kid, I used to think I was stupid I had a lot of doubt You know what fuck it I'm not gonna be judged by some drunk who's quit Cause instead I'd rather tell you what I'm all about I'm like everyone, so I'm not perfect But I just want to know, was it worth it Cause everything I do I give my heart n soul And I promise to never do what you did Cause your a dick as a whole And the only way we'll talk is in your dreams that is lucid You birth a child just to give up on him And cut your skin Just because I wasn't you And I don't think I could be more true Because you're just an embarrassment And I know this isn't how my last album went But a lot of things have changed And this wasn't arranged However, me dying Has given me the motivation I needed As before I would be crying But being mistreated Has made me stronger And now you're not even worth a dollar I know you're close to death And I wanna be the last thought While you take you're last breath You hated me, you still hate me Just because I use everything I've been taught But you'll never break me, actually you help me Cause I use the words of my enemies To win at life by any means necessary I'll be known as legendary Where you'll be known as an unknown drunk Which I know eats you alive Cause you thought I was gonna be nothing but a punk But I proved you wrong Cause I have talent And this is the only time a song Will ever be about you, just because your cash was spent On alcohol But I'm better than you after all Cause I have values you don't I have patience and control of my life And you won't So, one last time, I'm back, in plain sight Am I the greatest rapper, I might So, I want everyone to remember Never take anything for granted And never surrender Always be you, always be what you wanted Cause you never now when they could go So enjoy it while they flow